The good - On June 16th 2007 my sister and Ryan got married. They are celebrating their anniversary today and that makes me happy. I remember their wedding clearly and some things that come to mind are :
Sarah looking beautiful - truly her prettiest day
All of us girls getting ready at her house - hair and makeup fun
Rachel's bum limb
Ricky looking very dapper in his suit
Ryan tearing up when Sarah came down the aisle
My mom and dad walking her down
The yummy food at the reception
My dad playing Sarah's song that she sang for their dance - surprise!
My dad, Sarah and I dancing together, one of my favorite pics.
My mom being so happy and proud.
A happy couple.
Happy Anniversary to the Smiths - many more anniversaries to come!!
The sad - On June 16th last year, I had a miscarriage. Breaks my heart just thinking about it. Definitely never ever ever want to feel that heartache again. I came home one night after a softball game and just wasn't feelin the greatest. I went to the bathroom and low and behold, there was some spotting. I knew something was wrong. Of course I panicked and told Ricky what was going on. He was trying to calm me down and told me everything would be ok. I called the dr and she said to come in first thing in the morning for an ultrasound. I just knew in my gut though that something was seriously wrong. I had been feeling kind of wierd that week and my pregnancy symptoms were actually fading - which I thought was sketchy. I actually took a pregnancy test just to make sure I was still pregnant and it came back questionable. So, I was dreading what I already knew was going on. Sure enough at the ultrasound they didn't find a heartbeat and told me that the baby only measured 7 weeks. I felt like I couldn't breath::I was crushed::truly devastated. I know Ricky was hurting too, as I could see his eyes welling up.....but he was strong, much stronger than myself. The ride home was silent, but tearful. As I think back on this day I am sad.....I know that there are some unknown reasons as to why it didn't work out, and that God has a plan, but my heart still aches.
I will keep this day in my heart forever - for my sister, and baby L.
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